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Unforgettable Christmas

I wonder If God really loves to give me a little surprise….
What I really want for Christmas is… a lot:
1. I want to see my family and have dinner with them
2. I want to play with cokro all day long
3.I want to hang out with my friends
4.I want to sleep all day long with my beloved Pooh (winter, golden, flying pooh, African-American Pooh ) and have a good meal
5.I want a lot of presents >

There’s one thing always going on in my mind

What is the meaning of true friend in your life?

What is the meaning of family?

What is the meaning of your life?

I see many dark sides of human society…believe me , it was horrible

However,on the other hands, there’s always something that I can learn about

When I was a child , I thought that I would be something before I turn 21

but….now…I know I’m something even before I was born

3 words that I always remember: wisdom, knowledge, integrity

Such a simple words …..but it has a deep meaning …….

It represents all the things that now I’m doing

Is that worth it to fight ? Is that worth to hold?

One day my ‘mother’ told me….made a plan…pretend if you have something that you need to catch your dream….

After a while….I try to make a plan…..however…I don’t know

Well, speaking is always too easy……

The economic crisis is uncontrollable …who else you can depend on?

Right now….what is the right way to do?

My mind full of lots of ideas …but then again …..only God the ones that can make it comes true.

If I blame God with my condition right now…that’s mean I’m blind

I’m a pretty damn lucky girl

I get everything that I want….one by one …slowly but sure……

I get my own space… job…love…family…friends…. top university (sometimes almost killing me and sucked all my energy)…n promising future (I know God has amazing plan with it)….

What else I can ask?

….

The thing that I realize right now….

Time is so limited…never ever enough

Playing around just wasting your time…..make brain damage……….bad habit…… (well we still need time for refreshing…but depends)

hahahhaa

anyway…….

just remind myself

for the next year…………..

I think I have to upgrade myself

become a person that can thinking far to the furture

have a wisdom and knowledge

and not fool around…..avoid all that meaningless chatiing

use my time wisely……..

and get a job that I really want………………….

at least that for next year

anyway

thanks a lot for everything Lord

You’re the best

From church:
-God still loves you, no matter what you are
-In order to glorify His name, live your life to the fullness
-Don’t play around, second coming is about to come
-Don’t look to human, they never makes you satisfy…(including yourself)
-The best usher ever is holly spirit…..and the best music ever is our worship to God
-Gossiping only make other party hurt….(This typical negative outcome from too much care and curiosity)
-Only speak constructive word other than that….it’s better to be observant
-In the wisdom of the Lord…never ever zip your mouth….(What a waste…)
-Use your give maximumly without a doubt whether you can or not
-Don’t hesitate to speak with your leader….unless you want to crush yourself and being self pity
-and the last thing: Rule is rule..is not made to be abandoned … It’s better to follow it before late

From starbucks:
-Great coffe deserves great people
-You are a partner not just an ordinary worker
-Enjoy yourself while working
-Don’t let that " " businessman letting you down : Stand up and make the thing right
-You can take a break…everyone need it…but after that play your game …and YOU ROCK!!!!!
-Speak out your mind! It’s not the place that sealed your opportunity
-Be creative…not passive
-You deserves to be paid for every minutes you work
-If you need something…go to your boss…..: Speak or you never get it
-While you working,it’s better to keep in touch with God…or else you feel exhausted
-Your store is your house…your colleague is your family

from school:
-It’s better study hard before you screw your life up
-There is a chance …even though it’s quite different from original aim
-Never ever sleep during lecture—get your coffee or tea or snack……
(Get the real coffee lol…not the cheap ,dirty water taste coffee lol)
-Never talk to your friend during lecture…especially if you sit in the front row….(If you don’t want the professor  asking you a question)
-Take a lot of picture before graduate !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!(If your school as beautiful as mine ho3x)—-lol
-Don’t hesitate to make a friend….you’ll need them…seriously!!!!!!!
at last
-Use a strategy to rise your gpa or IP if you want to graduate……

In term of relationship:
-Love what you love with your heart
-Think the way he think….
-Give some room…
-Just show yourself…If he can’t accept it…..forget it
-Possessiveness  resulted negative thinking
-If you cant see him in his worse face or worse behavior….you r not loving him
-Make a plan before going a date…..esp if you want to go to shopping center( only one a million man can stand it lol)

In term of family:
-Your family will miss u……….It’s obvious
-Homesick…….even you said you hate your hometown
-Miss your mom’s cook so you learn how to make it
-Quite addictive to phone and text message
-Feel so lonely if you don’t have someone around you…especially if you come from big family
-Miss your maid ….miss how you ask them to fried an egg for you…to hand wash your silk top…..to go to store and buy a chocolate bar for you
-Miss how your dad make you wake up every morning
-Miss the Chinese  song that you forced to hear every morning
-Miss that Chinese drama series that your mom watch almost every night
-Miss how your mom pray for you before you go to sleep
-Treasure your family while you can…….like my mom said…Anak berbakti Tuhan sayang…n it’s true
-At last…………….. Like mom always said: God is your father…Jesus is your brother…Holly spirit is your mother…… so how come I’ll be lonely ?

waktu ada org nangis2 trus bilang:

All of my friends leave me…without even saying a word….they are my best friends!!!!!!!!

—-> Waduhhhhhh susaaa ni org lagi sensi yah kayanya??????? Masa di antara 6 million people in the world (bener ga sih?) kaga ada satupun yg bisa jadi ‘best friend’ ..temenan ma Bapa yang di surga aja ga bakal ditinggalin ato ma om malaikat (well they should be no gender….) .Emang dunia sesempit itu ya??????????????

kalo kasi comment yg baek: Wah pikiran kamu negatif banget….mereka ga perna ninggalin kok. paling juga sibuk…lagi pms y? Ni buktinya gw masi dengerin lo ngomng…jadi gw bukan temen lo….ho3x

kalo ada org bilang: Should I leave him? ( in term of relationship)

—>yang tau ya kamu lah…It doesn’t affect me at all ..whether you wanna stay with him or leave him…..If you happy let’s us celebrate together…but if you sad just come….I can comfort you…. Anyway…kau da gede tau la mana yang bener ato nga ga perlu dikasi tau orang…….

comment yg sangat rohani: Sudah tanya Tuhan? Dia dari Tuhan bukan? Konsultasi gih ke siapa gitu (i.e cell group leader). Tuhan selalu memberi yang terbaik buat anak2Nya. (comment: well, that’s what people will say to you….whether they have their opinion or not—but in my opinion that’s what I think first before asking other’s opinion lol—jangan tersinggung lo kalo ada yg selalu kasi ini jawaban lol—peace)

kalo ada yang bilang: baju gw bagus ga?cocok nga? atau gw cakep nga sih?

—> Gampang !!!Jawaban paling simple: Well, selera semua orang kan beda2 jadi terserah kamu…..atau semua orang cantik di mata Tuhan. hihihihihii

comment yg kejam: Waduh gw sih nga suka ya …tuh baju di kamu……aneh aja liatnya….atau hmmm kalo gw jadi cewe/cowo (tergantung yg nanya gendernya) gw sih ga bakal mau sama kamu…bukan type gw…………..

Kalo ada yg bilang: Kayanya kamu ma dia ga cocok de…dia orgnya diem banget kamu cerewet bangetttttt ato kamu orngnya high class banget…dia? waduhhhhhh barang china town

comment yg baek: You can’t choose….it’s all about love not appearance lol
              True love: accept semuanya la mo yg jeleknya mo yg baeknya kaga ada org yang sempurna di dunia ini. (teorinya sih gitu ya…prakteknya?????terserah anda)

comment yg jahat: suka2 la emang ni hidupnya sapa? Asal kaga makan nasi ma garem aja ya uda la…asal gw hepi2 la ga usah digangguin  ( ni comment cuman buat org yg da jengkel abis dikata2in lol)

kalo ada yg bilang: Tats a bullshit!!!!!!!!!!!
tul semua yg ditulis di atas ini emang bullshit nothing special about it! yug nulis juga ngerasa cuman isenk doank aja…but there’s some part that really important ….ho3x

1) Fulfilled my promise to  God
—> What else I can do besides  chatting with You everyday?
2)Reduced  an error
—-> What a language? error=gossip  alias ogah digosipin  ma org so jadi anak baek aja de………….( I always being a good girl though …..)
3)Being very serious : talking bout politics economic global warming etc
—–> Ho3 some people thinking I’m too childish……but I dun have friend to talk bout this things and no primary sources –"
4)Only manja with the rite people  i.e nyokap
—–> of course…no rules yg ngelarang anak manja sama nyokapnya…pa lagi kalo anaknya jauh di negeri orang ho3
5) No talking2 la ma org ga jelas
——> Mom said…no talking2 la with stranger
6)At least spend 2 hour in library ,whatever the reason
——->Feel the atmosphere of genius people surround u hahahaha…p
7)Get the job …..hmmmmmm for next year
——-> Starbuck….yay free coffee ho3
8)Fashion?——increase income increase shopping 
——-> Of course…….bo’ong kalo cewe ga suka shopping (watch what not to wear…at least they loves buying a pair of shoes!)
9)Care bout other
——-> Why it’s in number 9? Whatever the list I’ll do it anyway….. this include: loves my enemy…loves people who had wrong perspective about me loves people that dari sononya ada bakat mbencekno (are they exist? not sure—yg penting me care bout them rite?)
10)Increase ‘bakat terpendam’
——–> ??? no clue….thinking about that latter
11) Taking more chemistry course
———> hmmm Am I insane? Dunno just thinking that I love chem and chem is try and chemistry is the feeling before u fall in love…..so the conclusion : Chem is try…chem is love…..love is a trial (oh well I’m not agree with last statement)
12)Contact2 my old frenz
——–> Sorry ya kalo kadang tak perna ngucapin happy birthday esp to anak2 SMA…ingatan akan tanggal memang parah…maap!Maap kalo kaga perna sms…berat di ongkos hehehheehe
13)Belajar maen gitar n piano
——->Miss my old piano TT peduli amat ga jago2 yg penting me suka ho3 kali aja berguna tar suatu hari nanti…at least ada pendengar setia…Papa di surga and malaikat2 ho3
14)Kurangin telpon2 ga jelas
——-> susahhhh!!!!! Fido to fido TT ga mau rugi………..
15)Make a journal everyday
——–> Is that good for controlling stress and for your memory?
16)Less salt less sugar less msg less…..apalah……..
——–> Use knowlede from nfs 284 kalo perlu pake evalueat
17)Study study study study study
18)Bobo yg bener belajar yg bener makan yg bener
19)Maen yg bener …….no TV in study time …less disney channel TT
20)Upgrade my laptop…….
——->Kasian dia dah kebanyakan dipake TT

What’s the different between stubborn and strong willed?
Oh well……………the different it’s pretty near
perhaps just +/- 0.0005…….depends on the electron charge ( sorry too much SN1 and Sn2 reactions)
In other words , it’s only depends the result whether it’s exothermic(release heat) or endothermic(absorb heat)—once again sorry too much thermodynamics theory
In simple word…..how much energy you spend too get your product or result.
Both of them are same just make you tired . Facing lot’s of problem, struggling with the same thing everyday, practicing ,failed, missing leisure time with your friends..
But the outcome is different……once again negative or positive
Stubborn—>U know it’s not worth it…you know u should get rid of this problem, but you still keep it and make your life even hard alias sengsoro
strong willed—>you know it’s hard, you know you still have a chance even just 0.00001% at least you still get % yield, and you wish for a miracle.
Well in conclusion,In jowo : kabeh podo ae ora onok bedane makane dengerin nek wong tuwo ngomong .Palingan buntut2e nyesel.Seng penting seneng yo. Mumpung sek enom seneng2, tuwo akeh hartane, mati masuk Surga huahahhahaaaaaaa
(seng ngerti jowo jok diterjemahake yo)

NB: the conclusion above is not the real one …it’s my ‘ stubborn’ conclusion

You know what you are doing.You know your problem. And you know how to solve it.
Sometimes being smart is useless… Nevertheless , If you have wisdom and you worked on it…you’ll get whatever you want. Optimistic is good though ….
Sometimes I also doubted myself. Am I optimistic or Am I just being stubborn.
but once again

Nothing is impossible in Christ!

that’s the only thing I can said. Hopefully…the result is positive and you’ve got positive slope in your calculation.  lol

Selama 2 taon di Canada dah berapa orang yg saya sayang banget balik indo
So what’s the point? Banyak orang yang datang dan pergi dalam kehidupan kita
Beberapa hanya bertemu sebentar tapi memberi dampak yang luar biasa
Beberapa menghabiskan banyak waktu bersama tapi kita tidak pernah menghargai keberadaannya,hingga orang itu pergi…..
Sedih memang,tapi dengan siapa kita berjumpa Tuhan sudah mengatur semuanya

Tidak ada yang perlu disesali sekalipun pertemuan itu memberi hasil yang menyakitkan
Tanpa pengalaman manusia tidak akan pernah belajar untuk mengerti
Terkadang susah untuk diprediksi sampai sejauh mana kita bisa bertahan
Ada sahabat yang jauh namun dekat
Ada sahabat yang dekat namun hatinya pun tak ada yang tahu
Banyak macam manusia di dunia……..
Memang sebagai anak Tuhan hidup di bumi ini seperti sebuah sekolah
Di mana Tuhan ingin kita belajar banyak hal untuk mendalami karakter Kristus
Tuhan berkata hal yang terutama dan terpenting adalah kasih
Dapatkah kita mencitai sesama kita dengan sepenuh hati?

Kalau direnungkan lagi ….Tuhan berkata tanpa kasih semuanya sia2
Itu memang benar….percuma kalau memberikan waktu untuk seseorang
Mendengarkan mereka berbicara,curhat,atau bahkan shopping sekalipun
Kalau tidak ada kasih….akhirnya kita cape sendiri
Kasih membutuhkan pengorbanan…..belajar untuk menerima dan memahami karakter
Mengikis semua keeogisan dan memperlakukan sesama layaknya diri sendiri
Dari semua contoh yang pernah aku lihat….aku rasa cuman Tuhan Yesus sendiri yang mampu melengkapi semua kriteria mengasihi
2 hukum kasih: Kasihilah Tuhan Allahmu dengan segenap hatimu,kekuatanmu dan akal budimu
                            Kasihilan sesamamu manusia seperti kamu mengasihi dirimu sendiri
Kalau Tuhan Yesus ngak punya 2 hal diatas dia pasti sudah ngak mau disalibkan,sudah ngak mau turun ke bumi untuk genapin Firman Tuhan,sudah ngak mau dianiaya habis2an.
Kapan kita sebagai individu bisa menyadari hal itu?
Waktu tersenyum dan menyambut costumer yang datang ke toko…..kadang terpikir juga: Apa aku menyambut mereka untuk gaji…atau memang menyambut dengan tulus?
Mereka datang dari berbagai macam backround,orang asing,tidak kita kenal…..tapi ketika kita menyapa mereka dengan tulus…..entah kenapa ada perasaan yang berbeda. Terkadang tidak dibalas dengan ramah…tapi belajar dari hal kecil…terkdang terpikir juga kalau itu salah satu bentuk dari kasih.
Tersenyum pada teman yang sudah lama tak dikenal, orang yang kebetulan lewat dalam situasi tertentu, anak2 yang sedang bermain….enath kenapa dunia jadi terlihat damai
Even though world is so cold…but if you try to  love each other with your heart ,you’ll get piece in your heart.
Missing piece that I believe everybody have is love………..
Nothing but God’s love that can fulfill that need…..as long as we live in this earth we  still need supply of love………..
We don’t know how long we can live in this earth….20?30?50?70? Who knows?
If you don’t want to regret your life….start to give …spread your love and be a blessing wherever you are.
Pertemuan manusia hanya sekejap, berikan semua yang kita bisa agar kita tidak menyesal pada akhirnya. Hanya kasih Tuhan yang mampu menguatkan kita dan mengajarkan kita untuk mengasihi dengan tulus.

Darwinism: Stuggle of life, survival for the fittest

Evolution occurs because the factor both from outside and inside.

The why you are now is the way you developed yourself to survive in this earth……….

Why rose has thorns in her body?

It’s so easy….to protect herself.

Rose is beautiful , she is looks elegant ,calm ,and gentle in the garden.

but be careful when you touch her… The thorns will hurt your finger

Handling them carefully …cut all her thorn … then you can do everything you want

I think it same with human. Your behaviour constructed based on what happen in your life.

If you being hurt by something…the next time you meet same problem you’ll be wary

Traumatic event will cause the thorns in your heart….

Time after time after you untouchable and hurting your beloved one

So why don’t you cut all of the thorns in your heart?

….yes the rose is harmless but it may cause wound in your finger

Be careful with yourself…….you may hurting someone now and may cause further problems in the future

Dalamnya lautan dapat diukur dalam hati siapa tahu………..

—-Kata pepatah di Indo sih kaya gitu ya—

Tapi mohon maap pada pencipta peribahasa dan guru bahasa Indonesia yang telah mengajarkan pada saya soalnya ternyata ada juga salahnya ……….

—-Dalamnya hati….cuman Tuhan yang tahu———–berarti ada dunk yang bisa ngukur———

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